Saturday 30 October 2010

Samhain decorations!!!

I'm almost finished, I just have to carve 2 little jack o lanterns and add them to the display......






Tuesday 26 October 2010

On wishes, dreams, and magic manifesting in my life...

The other night, I was blessed with a beautiful moment...I was feeling a little forlorn, lying in bed alone staring out the window at the bright star that shines right in it on me. I had that song running through my head that goes ''Can we pretend that airplanes, In the night sky, Are like shooting stars, I could really use a wish right now''. And I gazed out the window, and suddenly, framed perfectly within my windowframe, a shooting star appeared, bright and streaking through the sky, dissapearing as they do. And I made my wish. A few days later, and it seems it has come true. I really need to get back in my habit of wishcraft, and of reconnecting to the natural world and the astral plane. I have had too many experiences that cannot be explained in normal terms (unless I have a habit of hallucinating, and certain things that can't be explained by hallucination never happened) to not believe in magick, the faery folk, and other forces and worlds beyond this one.

Too many times I have seen things that are not supposed to exist (whether or not I knew what they were at the time). I have heard voices telling me something that turned out to be incredibly helpful. On one occassion it was a very sharp warning that woke me up from my nap on our big swing and told me to GET INSIDE NOW. I thought it was my mother, and ran into the house to see what she wanted, shutting the door, and moments later two dogs ran into the yard fighting and snarling at each other and snarling at the glass door at me. My mother was oblivious in the kitchen on the phone, and hadn't called me.

On another occassion I was told to take a different street to get back to my hostel in California. The next morning I heard that a young woman had been attacked  a few minutes after I had changed streets, on the very street I had almost gone down. Other times I have had voices telling me a song, a phrase a word, something that seemed random, but was incredibly relevant to a problem or difficulty I was experiencing at the time, and often this saying led me to the solution or a 'eureka!' moment..

I have been tripped, not once, but twice, by something in the grass (I never found out what), and upon opening my eyes, a four leaved clover has been sitting directly in front of me. I gave one to my husband when he went to Afghanistan and it all but disentigrated (he must have really been using up the luck!), the other I quite stupidly glued to the top of my favourite wardrobe in my bedroom as a child, thinking I'd always have it with me. To this day I wish I had that wardrobe back, I loved it! I have several more given to be by my highschool boyfriend's mother, but the ones I found were the most special.

My high school boyfriend's mother was a very spiritual person, and was fond of the wee folk. One day as I sat helping to fold laundry, I saw to my complete shock the VERY distinct silhouette of a little winged person sitting on top of the stack of towels. It remained there for as long as I had my eyes open, even when I glanced away for a moment. When I blinked it was gone. To this day I am still shocked and if I hadn't seen it so clearly, I would have convinced myself by now that I'm completely nuts.

I have heard music that no one else seems to when asked, and on one walk in the woods I turned to see a red and white hound sitting on the path behind me watching me. I looked down the other way to see if there was anyone, like a person, and when I looked back a second later, the dog had vanished, and the trail and surrounding woods were too sparse for it to have run into without me seeing or hearing it. Later I read that in some culture red and white hounds, or white hounds, were the faery folk's dogs and I got the chills. It could have been a physical dog, or a faery one, I'll never know.

I have had incredibly lucid dreams, ones so difficult to tell apart from real life in which I met people and beings that taught me much of what I know, and shared wisdom and advice with me which I have carried with me (though not always acted on) to this day. As the years have passed by, and I have had some very traumatic experiences and many lessons learned the hard way, I drifted farther and farther from that good place, where I could go into my dreams and consult my helpers for advice. More days passed by without me hearing any hints, and with me ignoring all the tools at my disposal to help me as I became more focused on the immediate physical, and so disconnected from my true self that I probably wouldn't even notice if anyone tried to contact or help me and I forgot who I was, or what I even wanted. I started becoming the people I despised and pitied.

Slowly, I am reconnecting, reopening my mind, remembering to be thankful and respectful, listening to my intuition more, and being more honest with myself and others. I have grown up more, and at the same time done more stupid things in the last 6 years of my life than at any other time. I hope that I have learned my lessons, and that I can now begin to live the life I was meant to, and reconnect so that I am in that good place that I could escape to as a child. It comes right in time too, as my daughter is two, and becoming more and more aware of her world. She needs someone there who will lead her, and help her, give her spiritual and practical advice and steer her in the right direction, but be able to step back and let her pick her own path. As her mother, I should be that person, and I need to truly become myself if I am to do a good job.

My main problem is motivation. And sleep. I should go to sleep earlier, but the night is when I feel most alive, get most things done, and when it's quiet because my daughter is sleeping. So I usually do crafts and housework and read at this time. And the day, I am like a zombie, and cranky, and can't be bothered to do anything. Because of a rough adolescence, I was in a severe state of depression for many years, my life got more difficult, and now I have a lot more pain and horrible memories to weigh down on me, not to mention that habit that your brain forms when an action or thought is repeated  lot. I need to get motivation, keep motivation, and start forming new habits, ones which help me connect the the Otherworld, to my intuition, to the Earth, to that peaceful spot in my core so I can make descisions well, and learn and grow and thrive!

I have yet to figure out how to do this very well, but slowly, I'm working on it. Slowly.

Thursday 7 October 2010

Please sign this petition, and join us on Monday, Oct 11 in London!

For starters read the article here: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/debate/article-1317490/Druids-official-religion-Stones-Praise-come.html

Then, regardless of religion, if you are shocked, offended or angry that such an untrue, rude, and biased attack was even allowed to go to print, you can sign the petition for an apology here: http://www.petitiononline.com/druid1/petition.html

If you would like to join us, we will be at the Daily Mail Offices in London at noon on Monday. So far, over 100 are confirmed to be attending on facebook alone, with further 100+ possibly attending. Please read all the info here: http://www.facebook.com/#!/event.php?eid=165658720111461

NOTE: THIS IS TO BE A PEACEFUL EVENT!
Troublemakers be warned, the very loud, outspoken and eloquent organizers will be very quick to publicly shame anyone in true bardic style who comes and causes problems and gives us a bad name. NO VIOLENCE, hateful words etc. An it harm none. We are simply seeking to show that we exist, we are here, and we want the same respect as any other religion. Not to mention an apology.

Wands!

O-k, I have identified my woods. I have some very lovely hazel woods which along with elder and rowan, are reputed to be some of the best woods for wands, especially all purpose wands! I have enough to make 4, perhaps even 5 wands. I also have a hawthorn branch which is known to be a fairy tree, great for defense and protective magick and stregnthening, warding, concelment and weather magick. I finally have a rose branch which is great for protection, psychic power emotional healing, luck and divination.

So, for the Rose, my original idea still applies, however I found a lovely slender rose quartz to put on the point! As rose is also good for psychic power I have a lovely amethyst to use as a base stone.

My Hawthorn is looking to be a lovely wand.! I may decorate it with some red spirals painted on it reminiscent of it's vibrant coloured berries and add a rose quartz or clear quartz crystal to the point. I also have some lovely blue dyed agate I might put onto the tip...or as a base stone.....

For the Hazels, I have a few different sizes. I got a fairly thick branch which will make two nicely shaped wands, and I'm thinking of carving these and embedding a nice thick goldstone into the base. I also have a turquiose which would go nicely on one as well....

Wednesday 6 October 2010

The quest for wand materials..

I have just been out traipsing around the forests with my daughter in search of suitable woods for wands, and, success! I have found several beautiful sticks. Some are unknown, one is rose, and I brought some leaves back from the trees they came from so I can identify them.
I have some plans in mind for these wands already, although they will certainly change as the wands seem to almost make themselves! Although I do make some of my wands with glue, I want to go as organic and natural as possible as that helps to make the wand more powerful.

The rose stick is very slender and delicate, so I don't know if it will hold a crystal well, but perhaps if I dye it a lovely red, fading to pink, and treat it with some of my very expensive rose otto oil, and Moroccan rose oil, that should be lovely. I may even carve a very faint delicate rose vine up it, and fill in the lines with gold. Perhaps I will add some ruby red satin ribbon to the handle.

I need to identify the other branches before I think of what to create with them...I think I may have accidentally cut a hawthorn branch, although I did leave an offering in return, Irish folklore says it is bad luck to cut a hawthorn as you may offend the fairies living in that tree. It is regarded as a tree that is a portal to the faerie realm. Seems I have some apologizing to do before I make that particular wand, although when made, it will be a very powerful conductor for fairy magick!

I may also have an alder, aspen, beech, box, or hazel, all the leaves look similar! Aw heck, I should just go get the dratted branches and take a peek lol. I also know where to find the most magickal of all trees, the rowan, and also possibly a sycamore tree (which I at first mistook for a strange maple tree, turns out they are in the same family!) and silver birch as well!